Sunday, September 2, 2012♥
God loves me and He freely gives
Lord,
Please let no one touches those scars again. I don't think I can take it for a second time.
♥
God loves me and He freely gives
I really missed the good old days...
All the tears shed during practices and rehearsals, the sense of accomplishment and joy when I am standing on the stage for just that few minutes to put up a performance for the audience.
Not that I love the platform, but rather, it is a way for me to really express all the thoughts that I never dare to do so. All my fears, my love, my joy, my sadness, all is expressed through my passion for music and dance. It is a place for me to hide, where nobody can find you, where nobody will ever hurt you. It is a place for me to freely do what I want.
When that season had past, it is disheartening. I have never want to give up. But with work and other personal commitments, it seems almost impossible not to make some sacrifices. I gave up my staying in my orchestra group, I gave up my dance. Even though it still hurts me now and I desire to go back to pursue what I want, it feels different now. There is so much fears. What if you just cant make it?
Right now, I am just focusing on my guzheng grading exam. I really pray that this will be a platform that God will help me along with it. I really want to go back to my secret place, a commitment that I know I will never ever let it leave my side again. I must really learn to conquer all these fears within me. Lord, help me...
