Tuesday, June 23, 2009♥
God loves me and He freely gives
Sometimes, the answer is deep down in our heart. But we complicated it. Why the trouble?
Praise the Lord
Deciding something isn't easy, especially it is something close to your heart. Sometimes, we know what we want, but because of the situation, we are stuck in between choices in making the best decision out of it. So why complicated it? Can't we just choose what we want and walk the journey with the Lord?
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God loves me and He freely gives
Familarity really kills. A habit or a commitment?
I been thinking, sometimes, why can't we just have to don't do this and that just because we should not?
We all had a different journey with the Lord, and He will mould us in every steps we take. But alot of times, we had to make a decision. Why?
I started to feel distant. Is it just me? Or I'm thinking too much? It hurts me to see that happen. Distanting from someone who is important? Doesn't that hurts?
Making a decision between a issue. Is it just a habit or a commitment towards it? Sometimes, is hard to differentiate ourselves too. But we still had to make a decision from it and walk the Journey with the Lord. Choosing to break out from the habit or is it the commitments to the issue?
Sunday, June 14, 2009♥
God loves me and He freely gives
One more day to HM7 CAMP! What should i bring??? Please Lord don let me forget to bring anything. Thank You Jesus. Hehehehe. Went out today and had lots of fun. Nothing beats spending time with your love ones and having a break!Finally my term ends. But that doesn't mean everything can flow smoothly now (But it will in Jesus's name). After camp, I will have to prepare for projects. And well, the headach thing is, we have to learn how to work with a new member, who's quite difficult to work with as the working style is very different. One is enough, but it seems like there two. :( Thank You Lord we shall find favor with the people around us and you provide the wisdom for guidance...I hate it when people throw their rubbish problems to other people. Why run away instead of learning to make a decision? Learning to take up responsibility isn't easy I understand. But, whats the use of pondering over it and get angry over it instead of thinking of ways to approach? I think everyone of us has to learn how to cast our worries to God. Ultimately, which is the wiser choice? To run away, or to approach God? I was reminded by Him: "Love, why get so piss? You are in an advantage position when you walked the road of making decision. Making decision is what I have for you, a pathway to help you grow". Which is wow! Furthermore, Vanessa give me a timing msg: VAn: " My dearm I just want to say you are Jesus Christ finished work at the cross. I love you and have an awesome day with Jesus. Me: "Dear, I had a bad day. I so piss and lost now. People treat us like a rubbish bin and throw their unwanted staffs to my group and expect us to pick it up and clear the mess for them. And you see people running away from it instead of cooling down and think of a way. I'm so tired of making decision. I a human too. How to do so many things at one go without time to think and ask God. I feel like crying now"Van: " you know, when you tell me you seems to be making every decision, like a leader and is getting tired of people throwing their problems to you. I thought of you as a wise, spirit lead and woman of God that is able to give guidance to lost sheeps when you draw all strength and wisdom from Jesus, :) What do you think ailin?So what do you thinked? At first, I don't really understand what she trying to say as I'm so lost and confused. But when I think of it again and again, is just what God remind me. And I thought about my CMs meetings during the times with Coaches about what they say about leadership qualities, learning to reach out to people. I'm totally amazed by how God works in my life without I knowing it. It seems like He set out a pathway to equiped me with the skills before letting that big things come happening to help me grow. Think about it, without obstacles, how do I see His grace and love for me? Without His wisdom, how do I get the wisdom to make decision?
Thank you Lord! You have blessed me so much. Shower me with more of Your grace and words. Let me see the love You have for me more and more that I cannot withstand it. All things You shall provide Lord. ALL THINGS- Favor, Wisdom, Strength, EVERYTHING
If not for Your grace, How can I stand in my life?
Thursday, June 11, 2009♥
God loves me and He freely gives
Thank you Lord that you will provide the light out of this darkness. Nothing beats heading advices from you. No matter what, thank you for this obstacles that You will show your grace to me more and more through this.
IT SHALL BE RESOLVE IN YOUR WAY LORD!
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God loves me and He freely gives
I spent my whole day in church during my birthday. Wasn't what I want because i really want hope to celebrate with my family. But... hai.
However, I still thank God for brightening up my days, and let me recieve so much during the service.
Upon reaching, I met up with some of my cg members for lunch. And.... I recieve flowers from my twin-nee darling. Hehe. And is one of my favourite flower "Lilies". Alot people say I looked like I just finish my registration for marriage because I'm wearing white and the flowers make it looked more like it. -.-''
But special thanks to my beautiful dear, Janey, who planned an "hello kitty" celebration where everyone drew hello kitty on my cards, and get a small hello kitty cake for me. Coach even drew and write on my card. So blessed right. hehe. And he prayed for me too. Thanks Coach.
Let's see some photos taken:
my flowers from...
twin-nee darling!
and a little present from Ashely
There's more, the box with NP(a) wishes, and another heart pendant that twin-nee gives. I love it. Thanks. (But i lazy take photo) If got chance then take. heheh
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God loves me and He freely gives
The time to complete your assingment soon have come. And most importantly, 3 more days to HM7 camp! It will be my first time joining a church camp, somemore we will be staying in hotel. What are the games we will play? How will be the bonding session like? How will my first taking of a small daily devotional group go? WHAT WILL I RECIEVE???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AILIN IS EXCITED!!!!!But pray that she can enjoy camp TOTALLY without any worry.
Monday, June 1, 2009♥
God loves me and He freely gives
Thanks Daddy God for the awesome sharing today during meeting, and thanks Pastor Lian for the awesome service. :)God really speaks to each one of us differently. I love today msg, especially the part where Pastor Lian said:Self righteousness leads to self-dependency, and self-dependency leads to stress then to self-condemenation.
So true isn't it? Aren't there lots of time where we will get lost in our directions and thought that we must do well ourself in order to achieve great results? But as we thought of this, we depending on own efforts. How much can humans go? Humans strength are so limited. Stress always comes in when we developed expectations for ourselves and eventually, what others said, might indirectly leads you to condemn yourself. Some people said stuffs with no purpose of critizing that person, or look down on him/her, but thinking back, aren't we not being sensitive when we are stressed up? Having lots of fears that the results we wanted might not be achieve?Most of the time, we are just condeming ourselves. Even if people were to condemn you, it is the devil. But are we going to let the condemnation comes into our lives? Lives can really be stressful but it won't be when we are walking the journey with God. :)Today Coach Lewis told us to share about our lives with one another on how the gospel of Grace helped us to grow. And looking at one another lives, without God's grace, how do you stepped out of your self-conciousness? How to step out of your comfort zone? How to quit smoking within one day? How to learn to grow stronger and stand firm on His words through what we go through in our lives? All these are found on me and my friend's lives. Isn't God cool?Though we will walked through moments of darkness and pain, but God don promise that life will be smooth. Even He said that we shall feel drain out. But, He promised that we won't be defeated!Isaiah 40:31 (New King James Version)
31 But those who wait on the LORD
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.
